Focus and effort.

It's a tough bumpy road for these few days. Trying to holding on and keep breathing.
Emotional instability and workload catching. Insyallah, I can get through all this and will do my very best for it.

Assignments waiting, it's few but need all the focus and effort. Have to be completed before 4th of April 2012. Let's rock it with style everyone.
2 more weeks for Kuala Lumpur, short break for tuition free-week.

13 November 2011, Holiday Villa Cherating, Pahang.

The picture was taken at Nelayan Village in Kemaman, Terangganu.

Keep praying, don't loose any faith.
Keep believing, don't loose any hope.
Keep standing, don't quit halfway.

Insyallah we will meet again,
Ain Afiqah Ab Rahman.

Quotes of Wisdom, Day 3.

“Be not sad, surely Allah is with us.” (Qur’an 9:40) (Hadith of The Day)

Wordless Wednesday, 1.

19 December 2010, Le Village Resort Kuantan, Pahang.

"Sometimes you just need that one person who will talk and ramble, listen to your complain and act like an idiot, but still love you at the same." (Unknown)

Quotes of Wisdom, Day 2.

"Don't let anyone's ignorance, hate, drama or negativity stop you from being the best person you can be." (Stunning Hijabs)

Coffee and books.

Me and Aja Fauzi

17 June 2011- Kelantan

No class today, pheww good thing right? But sadly no productive at all. Yes I repeat NO at all. Being lazy but clouded in the head with so much stuff. Out of the topic for today, I just wanna scream out I miss reading. Yes, good material that enhance my knowledge and at the same time help me to recover all my boredism factor.
Let's do some official essay about reading. Start with the thesis statement, reading will help the brain to absorb more knowledge that will boost the readers to understand better depending on what type reading material that person reads. Obviously, if you read porno stuff the only thing you gain will be "The right skill of Kamasutra" which in my own opinion have no literally use for daily life information. I love the way my parents treat me, since I was a kid they don't really encourage me to watch television a lot since on that time computer were too expensive compare to now but they support me by reading. As I can recall, since I was 3years old they push me to read all kind of materials with different author to make me think out of the box. Sound pretty cool, but I don't use the advantage wisely so I end up loosing myself for a while when I was a teen before getting back on my feet again. I have few authors that caught my attention and mostly are chic-flick novels author such as Cecilia Ahern, Nicholas Sparks, Jean Echenoz and others. Ironically if you ask me, what will be my favorite book to kill the time and I will definitely say without any doubt; "The Chicken Soup for The Soul" by Jack Canfield. I love real stories with real people and when the actually reveal their own experience. It's quite amusing for me to put my imagination on their experience and at the same time to feel the same shoes their wearing. My most favorite Chicken Soup collection would probably the Father and Daughter collection when I imagine myself the bond between the father and me and I cried hard every page I read it. It's remind me the strong bond between me and my dad that can't live with each other but too ego to admit it. Hehe, yeah I'm kind of girl that have been treated like boys in my young age and have a huge ego like a man. So where-never I have to discuss anything with my dad, my mum have to be in that room to avoid headbanging towards each other. LOL it's exaggerated people, obviously it won't be to that extend.
My point today, is to encouraged people to start reading. Read the good quality books that you will earn something good at the end of it. Much better if you can share them to others and make it as a good example for better life. Sound's so motivational but hopefully it boost you to make at least a small move on reading.

source: Google image.

Insyallah we will meet again,

Ain Afiqah Ab Rahman.

Monday Blues.

Phuket trip: 12 February 2012 till 16 February 2012

"The reason why I wake up with a smile every morning; my dearest parents. Alhamdulillah, I'm faithful with the life I have and I'm blessed with unconditional love from them."

Reminiscing the memory lane.

"You make wanna love, you make me wanna fall, you make me wanna surrender my soul"

I'm turning 23 this years, it's a pretty big number at least for me. But it's still long way to go, and lot's of thing to be catch up in order to discover what life really mean. Have you ever cross when some songs that been played in your iPod reflect to how old you are specifically when the songs were currently blooming. It's not a bad feeling, but it's like a slap on your face how far you've been. I was grown up listening to Britney Spears, BLUE, 911, N'sync and lot's more to go. Yeah basically I'm a 90's babies. The time when were all the band-boy really hit the charts and Britney just started her career.

There's one song really captured my attention, since I keep replayed the song again and again. It's a song called "U Make Me Wanna" by BLUE and if I'm not mistaken this song were on hit in early 2000 or somewhere around that. Sorry for the lack of information on that but that it's not I wanna share about. I wanna share about how songs really make a huge impact on me.

Listening to this song, reminds me on what I have been through. The upside down, the lost identity, the confused about future and last but not least boys. Boys? Sound like quite number right? But nah, I'm not that kind of girl having a collection numbers of boyfriends while in high-school. I'm kinda nerd back then plus I'm don't really know how to dress up well. 

Back in high-school, I don't really have much guy friends compare to now since I was in girls school and my parents were pretty strict on that time. But things change when I get to know this guy, we become bestfriend and after high-school we declared as couple. It's actually my rules not to declare anything while I'm still stuck with SPM nightmare.So he waited, till we finally breathe out from SPM and the declaration become open. I know, it's funny since it's a "puppy love" on that time.

Amazingly this "puppy love" really change my perspective about love, boys, and life. Yeah, we been holding on together for quite some years till it become serious after we entered college life. Sometimes, what we expect may turn out badly from the way we always wanted. After log years having each other, we finally end it in harsh way which really effects me mentally and emotionally. I never thought broken heart will lead me this bad and affect all the good part of life on that time. Pretty stupid, but I still remember someone said to me "the first cut always the deepest" and I'm totally agreed with that quotes.

After all years backing up, and fight for my future I'm back on track but this "puppy love" drama have traumatized me. Maybe for some people it may be bad way but for me I took it as a good positive side to be a better person. I don't avoiding boys or hating relationship till that extends but I learn to preserved my heart for the one that really deserved to have it, which I gradually named the lucky guy as husband. LOL

I know, it's sound too fantasy but I'm kind of girl that believe in fairy-tales and true love. As time goes by, I learn a lot about relationship, about people come and go, life drama and sort of. Lemme crack your head easily, I'm 23 and still single. It's my choice and I'm proud of it. I preserved my heart just to love my husband. As for husband here, I mean as a guy that can lead me to Jannah, love me and our future kids with all his heart, be my kids and me caliph to Allah's pleasure, be a good Imam to the family, wonderful leader and help each other to be a better servants for Allah. He doesn't have to be perfect, and there's no perfectionist except Allah Taala'.

I hope I'm not asking too much because I believe "good man are created for good woman". I understand, I have done some sins back in the past and I know I still lack of knowledge in Islam but Insyallah with Allah's will I'm willing to learn to be a better Muslim.

*p/s: I'm sorry I can't recall the source of this du'a

Insyallah we will meet again,

Ain Afiqah Ab Rahman.